I feel so much rage and anger and I realize it’s because I’m hurt and angry at myself. I disappointed myself by bringing in a sociopathic, manipulative worm into mine and my daughters world. Now my girls feel so much shame and anger that it’s impossible for them to even speak with me. All because of this vile and ugly creature I married. I should’ve known his relationship with his “roomate” was not just friends living together. He used his roommates love against him the same way he did with me. When he told me how he used to very easily fool his mother and his friends all the time, that should’ve been my sign post as to what kind of manipulative lying heartless sociopath he was going to be with me. Why would I have been any different than his mother? No one is safe with this sociopath running around. He’ll play his little games of lies and manipulations until someone discovers it then he’ll just simply move on to the next victim. I pray whoever he’s going to deal with next doesn’t have young kids. I’ve walked in on a few acts of his insanity to then have him convince me it wasn’t what it looked like. It was really easy for him to do at first. Who would want to believe that a grown man would falaciate his cat while pleasing himself?
At least the first time I witnessed it, it was easy to convince myself I didn’t really see what I saw. That’s the exact moment I should shown him the door and kicked his twisted ass out of my life. I’m very angry with myself for allowing things to continue. However, I can forgive myself because I have found countless of other women who have fallen for the same charming, love-bombing sociopath, compulsive liars all over the world. It’s become my calling to teach and preach to the young people of the world that their instincts are always spot on and they need to listen to that little voice and follow it fearlessly.
At this time, my husband is convincing some other poor lowly victim, that he is truly for them only as long as they let him rule them emotionally. He will convince them that all his ex partners were crazy and didn’t understand him, that he only made little mistakes and he’s just as fallible as anyone else. He will convince them and before they even know what’s happening, he will dictate what their reality is in order for them not to see his true heartless form.I have come to appreciate the Spartan mentality when it comes to destroying a maladjusted individual to save the rest of the species. Those sociopaths that can not be reformed should be destroyed for the sake of the greater good. In order to save future generations from this malady, we must educate and I feel we should extracate as well. However, I realize it could be just my anger dictating the solution. In any case, it is my mission to educate. I pray to all that is holy and good in this world to find a way to extracate and save us from this little known and widely spread disease called, The Sociopath.
I have been asked to speak with a couple of representatives at the local domestic abuse center. I’m humbled and proud to meet with the NH senator and with The First Lady of Florida. I will stand by them proudly representing someone who has lived through a lifetime of abuse and decided “No More!” I will not be silenced any longer.